All I have to say is, I am sorry! I am sorry for not being there for you at times. Times when you just needed someone to listen to your troubles and to give you someone sane advice. But instead, you ended up going to people who do not know you as I do! I apologize for being inconsiderate! I am sorry for making tighter bonds with others and having a life that does not revolve around you! A life consumed by routine! I am also sorry for being brutally honest when you wanted me to "sugar-coat" my honesty. I am sorry for getting in the way of all your relationships; truth is..., I love you so much that I caused your relationships to end tragically, for I cannot help but want you for myself! Everywhere I go there you are, around the corner, driving in a passing car, in the sky above everyone because I wish you so much success. Truth is, I believe in you, and I am unable to live without you, as it feels like you are a part of me, my other! Every time I look back at myself, there
Stop talking, please just stop. Flip the switch and stop the words from their source. All we ever do is talk. Reminders of yesterday, of last week and last month. Reminders of how unreliable I am. Talks of how reckless I have become. Chatter to top all chats. Stop talking, please just stop. Flip the switch and stop the words from their source. I am only tired of using my mouth for something other than kissing. Words carefully constructed, de-constructed and reconstructed to resemble sincerity, empathy and honesty to mask lies and infidelities. I said I was sorry. I even apologized for what I was sorry apologizing for. Lies to keep the truce, so shut up and drink your juice. Stop talking, please just stop. Flip the switch and stop the words from their source. Please bring back the peace and let us break bread. If you point your finger, I will point to the mirror.